Finding Myself

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Galatians 5:22-23 (NKJV) – 22 But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, 23 gentleness, self-control. Against such there is no law.

Am I lost?  Sometimes it feels that way.  How did I get here, why did I want to get here and how do I get somewhere else?!  In my family we have a saying, “You take yourself wherever you go.”  What we’ve found is that unhappiness isn’t always coming from external sources, a lot of the time the unhappiness we feel is because it’s inside of us and as we “take ourselves wherever we go” that unhappiness comes right along with us.  As our Father’s Daughter, His desire is for us to be happy inside, to have that peace that passes understanding so that regardless of where we are, who we’re with or what our circumstances are we can have peace, love, joy and the other fruit of the Spirit.

There’s a beautiful passage in Philippians 4 where Paul talks about that regardless of his circumstances he is content:

Philippians 4:11-13 Amplified Bible (AMP):  11 Not that I am implying that I was in any personal want, for I have learned how to be [a] content (satisfied to the point where I am not disturbed or disquieted) in whatever state I am.  12 I know how to be abased and live humbly in straitened circumstances, and I know also how to enjoy plenty and live in abundance. I have learned in any and all circumstances the secret of facing every situation, whether well-fed or going hungry, having a sufficiency and enough to spare or going without and being in want.  13 I have strength for all things in Christ Who empowers me [I am ready for anything and equal to anything through Him Who [b]infuses inner strength into me; I am [c]self-sufficient in Christ’s sufficiency].

It says that we have strength for all things in Christ Who empowers us.  So here’s the real question, how do we find ourselves in Him?  As we’ve talked about in earlier posts, in our modern society we spend a lot of time working to find ourselves, what we are good at, what we enjoy, who we enjoy and the best ways to create an environment where we can be surrounded by those things to ensure an optimal chance to be happy.  What we find, though, is the people we thought we liked, the career we achieved, the spouse we married, the kids we were so desperate to have, somehow don’t meet the happiness quotient we were hoping and we ask the question, “How do I find myself?”  Because surely if I found myself in the perfect place, I would find that joy, that peace, that happiness we all crave.  But as we look at the passage from Paul in Philippians we find that he’s revealing that it’s not in our external circumstances but instead it’s in our communion with God and the continued understanding that He loves us, He’s made provisions for us to ensure that we are equal to anything and gives us the inner strength for it.  Here’s the catch, it’s not a one time event!  It’s daily.  Just as we have to eat every day, breath 12-18 times per minute, so is our reliance on our Heavenly Father.  Are you looking at where you are at this stage in your life and asking the question, “How do I find myself”?  If so, let’s continue this journey to find ourselves in Him, what He’s done for us, who He’s created us to be and most importantly, the confidence to know that in His eyes we are beautiful, a perfect creation to accomplish exactly what He’s designed us to do and be!

Resource:  Andrew Murray’s Abide in Christ*   Is it possible for the believer always to abide in Jesus? Is a life of unbroken fellowship with the Son of God indeed attainable here in this earthly life? Truly not, if the abiding is our work, to be done in our strength. But the things that are impossible with men are possible with God. If the Lord Himself will keep the soul night and day, yea, will watch and water it every moment, then surely the uninterrupted communion with Jesus becomes a blessed possibility to those who can trust God to mean and to do what He says. Then surely the abiding of the branch of the vine day and night, summer and winter, in a never-ceasing life-fellowship, is nothing less than the simple but certain promise of your abiding in your Lord.

* Note – on the resource page I’ve added some information about this daily study, it’s been a tremendous blessing to me as I’ve pursued who I am as my Abba’s daughter and realizing that it’s not in my hard work but in my trusting and reliance on Him to keep me.

A Daughter’s Prayer – Abba, every hour I need You.  Oh bless me now my Savior, I come to You**.  I belong to You and desire to be, have and do all that is in Your heart for me.  Jesus, You are the way, You are the truth and You are our life!  Where would I go Lord, only You have the words of truth and words of life.  I put my whole trust in You as my vine and I am Your branch.  All I need is in You.  There is nothing for me in this world or in myself and my trust and hope is in You.  Pour over us all of Your goodness and mercy and may we see and acknowledge Your amazing wonders.  I love You Lord and thank You that You are always with me, always near me.  My hope is in You.  In Jesus’ holy name, amen.

** The hymn, I Need Thee Every Hour, was written by Annie Sherwood Hawks and was reflective of my desire to recognize the truth in that.  Here’s a little bit about her

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